lets to it again

another one

a song for this moment in time

blue mist

hello all, i have not been here for awhile. been feeling so low i cannot write. my world seem so full of this blue mist, i can almost swim in it. not all days are like this, just seems like its been like this alot lately. i have post traumatic stress disorder, and im also bi-polar. i have had some pretty awful things happen to me in my life. i have been on some real good meds. the past few years, and they seem to realy help. but lately there is so much drama going on around me, i cant help but feel some of it. drama, usually is a word that is not in my vocabulary most of the time. i hate it with a passion! i feel so all alone, i need someone in my life. this loneliness is going to kill me...

mafia wars

well i dont know if any of you follow mafia wars on facebook, but iam addicted! i love having all of my friends over there. i have meet so many people and now have a few new friends. iam there every single day, i love it! tonight im going to paris. we have a few new jobs to do. which means we can obtain new things. not to mention advancing in the game. well, it will be something else to keep my mind off of other things tonight. my daughters came and brought my youngest gran-son for me to take care of for awhile. he needs to see his big brother for a few days. angle 7 and azi 4. my hands are going to be full. at least they will be full of love. im just alittle afraid that my daughter is starting to get use to this, (my taking care of the boys) i dont mind helping her out for awhile but, i cant do it for to long. for this mamma needs her time alone from the children now and then. more now than then...

this will make it better

everlast

i don't know why the picture on the video turned out the way it did. although i'm sure that it must have had something to do with me. i'll put in a different one, but it is the only one i have right now. i'll look for a better one later. i'll probably post a few of his videos anyhow. peace...

remembering those words

winds of time

well i was right about the feelings. but this time i won't let it get the best of me. still having a hard time dealing with my past. so many broken bridges and so many that have yet to be crossed. they say that time heals all wounds, i beg to differ...

slow running river

yes, this is just how i feel today. just like a slow running river. i just feel so down...i have a funny feeling that something not so good, is lingering around me somewhere. i dont know what it is, but im pretty darn sure it is there. well, guess ill just take it easy and hope that it is not going to be major. better get myself prepared, for when i get these kinda feelings, im usually right. hang on marilyn, your about to go for a ride. :( peace...

just one more

rebel, sweetheart

good morning sunshine

good morning sunshine, something i say to my 7yr, old grandson, when he gets up in the morning to take his bath. he has been staying with me for about a year. schools are better were i live, than where my daughter jennifer lives. jennifer 22 and hannah 21, both live in springdale, arkansaw. they spent a whole month looking for a new apartment, finally found one that they liked and then paid for it. they spent one night and went to work in the morning, then they recieved a call that their apartment had just burned down. talk about a rude way to start the day! but they are fine now, sort of. they are having to start all over again. need new this and have to have that, kind of stuff. its rather sad actually. but on the other hand, it has built their character up some. you have to learn to appreciate the smaller things in life sometimes. and i think that this has taught them that. ohhh ok, im feeling kind of low today, guess i write more later. peace...

save the best for last

its evening now

well sorry that i dont have the videos for these last two songs, their are just not any available. not that i have been able to find. and the ones i have found, really dont go along with the lyrics. but these three are my favorites. 'how good it can get', 'from the bottom of my heart' and 'god says nothing back' they are from there album 'rebel, sweetheart'. peace... for the night,

last one for now

wallflowers

more dylan

just a few more 'wallflower' songs then tomorrow i will more that likely change geares and try another one of my favorites. i hope that no-one becomes bored with hearing my music, for this is just the begining of my blog. i plan on getting to the point were i can start writing more about myself and life in general. i have alot of things going on in my life and i suppose this is where i will be putting everything down. might become an interesting story.

music with sight

im almost sure i have it. not completely down, but down none the less. obviously still lots more to learn. but i guess thats pretty much what i wanted when i started this project. somewhere i could go and combine the music, the pictures and part of myself together. and learn something new along the way. peace...

lets do it again

so my music turned out alright. i wanted to put in the video for that song but i only had the 'song' downloaded. still planning on applying some videos, but first im going to add another good song. the wallflowers lead singers name is jakob dylan. of course you probably already figured out, that his father is the legendary folk music singer, mr. bob dylan. grew up listening to his music also. actually, listened to many, many different artist. as youll see here soon. peace...

doctors orders

just what the doctor ordered indeed! music! i have been trying to figure out how to put in some tunes for a couple of days. now that i have done it, i cant believe how easy it turned out to be. this is the first time that i have attempted to make a blog. i have made pleanty of mistakes and have pleanty more to come im sure. one thing that i have learned along the way is, that there is a big difference between a blog and a wiki! :) peace...

wallflowers

so, this is the world of blogging. seems that there is so much to learn. guess i will just dive right on in and get started experimenting with different ideas i have. i want to be able to add different styles of picture art and also music videos. i like to change my pictuers around to reflect my many moods and music is a form of therapy for me. so stay tuned and lets see where all of this leads to. should be fun!

once again

well it looks like i have my work cut out for me. there is more to it than i thought. now that im where i want to be, i think i'll try and add a video of coldplay, one of my favorites. peace...

me, my self and i?

damn! i guess iam getting popular! i just followed my own blog! :)

today in my world

well here iam finally. im making a slow start of it, but hey, iv started it. ok, what to do next. i think im going to try and add some music to this. need to find the groups i joined also. maybe take a trip to the coffee shop, peace...